for you guys

I hope everything are okay
I dont want it to get worse
Maybe i care too much
When nothing really happen
Now everyone is annoyed
Maybe we should just wait the day to come
I just want my friend to know
No matter what i will be there
Please do me a favour
Dont suffer alone
Because i care , i love them like my family
Maybe you guys dont understand
But having you guys in my life just make me happy
Let me be your pill for your happiness
Let me be your pill to take your pain away
Let me be your pill to take your sadness away
One thing you guys should know , ur sadness , ur stress
Ur tension , ur happiness i can feel it
Seeing you guys smile on the picture it hurts me alot
When in reality too much pain you guys faced.
Everynight we all having the same thing to faced
One day can we talked this out?
Heart to heart talk please?

Nonsense kan aku

Bila kau bangun , macammana kau lihat dunia?

Macammana kau lihat diri kau dekat cermin?

Apa soalan yang akan ada dalam fikiran kau?

Bila kau stress , kau rasa satu dunia tak mengerti , tak adil  dengan hidup kau

Kau tak tahu nak minta pertolongan atau diam diri saja

Sebab kau rasa masalah kau tu kau boleh handle , atau privasi atau mungkin ini perkara kau taknak orang lain fikir “Masalah kecil pun nak stress”

Aku pun rasa gitu juga. Kadang2 kan aku penat . Hari hari benda yang sama dimainkan dalam fikiran aku

Sedangkan benda macam gini remeh-temeh gitu

Tapi aku tak tahu apasal perkara kecil ni lah buat aku fikir bagai nak gila.

Kadang2 bila aku berbual dekat whatsapp group takde orang layan aku takut .

Sebab aku takut aku annoyed dorang. Aku takut aku irritating

Sampai aku membuat andaian sendiri oh dorang confirm da taknak kawan dengan aku lagi .

Maybe it just me . Aku suka berbual . Aku rasa kalau satu hari aku tak berkomunikasi dengan siapa2 .

Hidup aku ni macam sunyi gitu. Aku rasa lonely. Padahal aku tahu semua ada hidup masing2.

Aku rasa macam aku selfish gitu . Aku taknak sampai ke tahap yang aku meminta perhatian .

Kadang2 kan aku lihat kawan aku stress. Aku yang rasa sedih . Sebab aku rasa mcm aku bodoh tak boleh bantu dorang.

I put that position in my shoe and blaming myself for not helping.

Senang cerita im a kind of person yang salahkan diri sendiri

And like everything happen because of me.

Annoying kan aku? Haha . Sudi jadi kawan aku?  

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missing

Sometime i just can't control my emotion
Sometime i just can't help myself to stop overthink
Sometime i just can't stop giving people chance
Sometime i just can't  stop care about people who are not worth it
Sometime i trust people easily.
Sometime i just put others first than myself.
Sometime i put the blame at myself first.
Sometime i just feel insecure what they think of me , how im react , my personality, my appearance and anything.
I have come to a point where i am finding myself.
To stop think about little things
To stop to be emotional
But i just can't help. Maybe it just me.
I don't want my feeling or emotion to distract my mood and my surrounding .
Did i have any missing piece in my life?
I have family and friend  . Well that is the most important thing right?
Their love , care , honesty and sincere is enough for me
But why did i feel as if something is missing?
Sometime i just have no one to talked to
Sometime people whom i wish they will stay but eventually leave me .
Someday i need to learn to let it go
You know the feeling when one day you feel everybody againts you.
You know the feeling when you need to think twice just not to to annoyed others?
You know the feeling when you feel you're annoying to other so you just keep in silence?
You dont know how you end up to get that feeling it just came through ur mind suddenly?
So please can you
Now tell me what is my missing piece?